Unconscious tides

The unconscious is powerful, I have to admit. It strikes me as holding the key to a great part of the chains of states in one's mental dynamics. Sometimes, aftershocks, tides in their final, amorsed state, are felt as tiny shades of distraction of a hyper-consciousness.
I finally got to make some order within, though the landscape is gappy seen in its concatenation of temporal parts. I listened to the recording of Perry and Taylor's 'Philosophy Talk' on consciousness with Chalmers and this set me in a good mood. The humanity of it all slowly but surely makes its impact on me. I'm still in a haze, the asymmetry interior vs. exterior continues to torture me from time to time. Why is the meta-move so pervasive inside me ?