Goals

These days I am trying to come back to the way of life I need. Some lax discipline, some repression of negative habits (Football Manager), some wise ratiocinations. It is amazing how respecting the regular sleep program reconfigures myself as I once was, plus the zig-zags that added through the years. I am living once again with an ideal in the background- to populate each moment of time with reflections and wise decisions, with associations, with the promise of the true me in action. Perhaps this is an untouchable ideal, in its exact form, as I envisage it, but an ideal I need. But perhaps the moment will come when I will accomplish this, and I will meta-reflect and say it's ok, now I'm really doing it. I will need a new ideal then. I'll always need ideals. In life, you always need goals for yourself.