Tiredness

I felt incredibly tired the last few days and I continued to experience a profound lack of motivation. The underlying factors are multiple, I suppose, and I long ago lost track of them all. I have to start working very seriously at my project for the master, but I lack the intelletual clariy and lucidity needed. It feels like I have a mountain to climb and I feel crumbled beneath all the piles of disorganised thoughts, intentions and observations I gathered and I lost track. The only thing that comes from deep inside is the desire to play FM, to immerse in the world there, the ultimate holistic simulacrum of a life constructed on the basis of structural isomorphisms and surrogative action. I sense a duality within me, between the available ressources and the intentions, goals, and plans I foster for me. I am going to all sorts of infrastructural transformations that I cannot fully understand. It seems hazy, it seems I am living in the dream of the vagueness of my life. Hope is here, as always, optimism as well, patience too, but I cannot help to remark the parallelism with true life engendered once again. Time will tel. I hope for the best.